How To Decondition Yourself


Processing Reality
Pitfalls of Perception
Processed Reality
Spiritual Pitfalls
Ideological Pitfalls
Emotional Pitfalls
Creating Reality
Points to Ponder


What is conditioning? How does it work? Which impact does it have on consciousness, on our perception of reality? Is there a way to get to the raw perception again, to de-condition ourselves? Or has conditioning affected our brain and our total perception apparatus in such a way that we will forever see life through tinted glasses?

Is it at all possible to enjoy reality unprocessed, as raw information that comes in through the senses, or is the reality we perceive already a processed one in the sense that it is distorted by our perception interface?

Hence, when we want to find out about the subtle techniques of cultural conditioning, we better look first into its contrary and ask: what is that state that is not conditioned. This leads us automatically to the question what reality is. Is reality a matter of perception? Or a matter of beliefs? How do our beliefs impact and imprint our perception? What makes us believe at all? Do we need to believe anything? Or is making up beliefs perhaps an automatism of our brain?

Is reality rational, irrational or meta–rational? Do we live in different realities or is there one single reality?

Can we perceive reality in a pure, unprocessed state or is every reality we perceive a processed reality in the sense that our perception is conditioned by the feedback–loop of our memory surface?

And can we clear our perception surface to a point to perceive reality, whatever it takes to get there, in a pure and unprocessed state?

Is the universe a creation of our thoughts, or is it an abstract creation? What about poetic reality? How is it possible that great poets and thinkers have intuited most of the findings that quantum physics now reveals to us?

And once we have clarity about how perception works, and how easily it is manipulated by the big commercial and political players, we may inquire into that latest slogan they have come up with some years ago, and that reads Worldwide Democracy. And we may ask: ‘What is that soup and what is the taste of it?’

What is worldwide democracy and in which ways does it infringe upon our perception of reality? And upon which myths is it built?

These are some of the questions I try to ask and answer as good as I can in this article. By the way, those who see the solution of all problems in the propagation of what they call rational reality or logical reality are mistaken as they blind out the irrational, which is equally part of human nature. Our emotions have their own intelligence, and yet they are not rational when perceived only from the left side of the river, our deductive mind. We have a right brain hemisphere, and that functions pretty much on the irrational side most of the time, and through associative logic.

We cannot perceive the totality of reality as long as we blind out a part of our human setup. We are totally aware when we are totally human. And we are totally inhuman when we are totally rational. The intelligence of nature is not rational, but meta–rational or holistic.

Processing Reality

This article on consciousness research questions the ontological validity of cultural, social or moral conditioning and throws us back to apprehending our true soul values, both on an individual and a group level. Our first topic of inquiry is the question if the human mind is able to perceive the crude unprocessed reality as is — or if it inevitably needs to process it?

With other words, can we eat the soup of life without putting salt in it, and without heating it up? Is it possible to perceive reality other than through the opaque filter of our conditioned mind? Can the mind be cleansed for better perception, or else altogether circumvented during the process of perception? Can perception be pure and undistorted in the sense of being direct and immediate?

Before I try to give answers to these questions further down in Creating Reality, let us first see the mechanism of our mind when perceiving reality; this implies the process of perception and also the question how the brain, as the long arm of our mind, handles the information which is received.

It is today agreed upon among the majority of neurologists and consciousness explorers that the mind and the brain are both necessary in the process of perception. The mind is the larger framework and perceives the whole of reality, while the brain seems to be a functional unit of the mind, more involved with the actual information processing.

Much is still open here, but one thing is sure: the mind and the brain are not, what was thought still some decades ago, one and the same thing. The mind can be imagined as the matrix, and the brain as the processing device. But we must not functionally confuse them as their roles in perception are clearly set by nature, and this was formerly a terra incognita in science and came to be known only by modern neurology in combination with the insights we gained from mind–opening and consciousness transforming psychedelic experiences.

The process of learning, if we want to understand it intelligently, can only be seen when we look at the totality of perception. Learning is the way we deal with what we perceive, it is a process of processing information and this information is collected by our brain through a rather complicated process that we call perception. Thus, when we care about the process of learning, the way we learn, we need to look at what perception is and how it works.

Perception is a topic not very broadly discussed in modern science. This obvious neglect of scientific in–depth study into the holistic process of perception has various reasons. The main reason is the general focus of modern science upon information processing.

There was a historic shift around the end of Antiquity that led to a trend away from direct perception and toward information processing, archiving or mere information reproduction. That is why today we have collectively forgotten about direct perception. Yet this knowledge has survived in Shamanism and with spiritual healers in Scandinavia, South America, Asia and Africa, and generally with native peoples. And it is part of a perennial spiritual tradition among sages in the East and the West.

What, then, is direct perception?

Direct perception is our natural and most intelligent mode of perception. It is perception that circumvents most of the information processing circuits and therefore leaves the incoming signal as untouched and intact as possible.

New research has fully corroborated the teachings of the old sages who said that learning has to be holistic and whole–brain in order to be truly effective. To look deeper into these facts, we cannot get around the disturbing insight that since about the scientific doctrines of Aristotle, and within Occidental culture, we have used our brains in the wrong way.

You may laugh but I am serious when I say that there is another abuse you haven’t heard about yet: it’s brain abuse. And it’s a cultural thing. We as a culture have misused our brains, millions of brains in millions of people.

We do that by educating children in the wrong way, in a way to systematically abuse of their brains, until they do it the way we other adults do it, by using only about four to eight per cent of their brain potential.

Now, we hardly got time to sit around crying.

I would say that there was never a better time for us, as individuals, as a group, as a nation, as humanity, to really see this fact as it is and to work on the reformation of culture. To turn it upside down. So that the garbage falls out, and all the wrong beliefs. How to turn culture upside down? By studying it, deeply, thoroughly, with all our energy. This culture is in us, in our cells, in our brains, in our skin, in our stomachs. We cannot just vomit it out for being newborn as a tabula rasa.

Metaphorically speaking, it’s not by throwing bombs in McDonald restaurants that you get free from the murder culture.

It’s by accepting all the ingredients of this culture. Thus, by going to a good restaurant, eating with good table manners, and selecting fresh food, by using the napkin and patiently, and lovingly, teaching your children to do the same, you reform and transform culture.

It’s because you renew it by really absorbing it. What you do, instead, is to pay lip–service to it and then go to eat like a pig. And then, after a while of indulging in pighood, you wonder why your children become pigs.

You think that when you let your children grow into a no–culture, you give them freedom and options, right? Not so. You give them violence, chaos and a no–option mindset. Your children can only grow in culture. And that culture is your culture. Tell me in which culture they should grow if not in yours?

So, when I follow your logic, we both can only agree about this: your children will grow in no culture. You do not teach them your own culture because you think it’s a messy kind of thing, too violent, not really conscious, manipulative. Yes, it is all that. But, you cannot turn the culture upside–down by rejecting it. You can only turn it around by ingesting it — and then, once you have also digested it, by overcoming it. When you know what culture is all about, you can choose another culture to live in.

We can only wonder when we hear scientists say that generally we use only five to eight percent of our brain or creative resources. Why are we so terribly unproductive, so utterly ineffective in our creativity, in our performance, in our achievements? Despite this whole process called civilization, despite schools, colleges and universities, despite the printing press, Gutenberg and all the rest of it, we have remained in a truly primitive state of evolution regarding learning and understanding the learning process.

The answer is simple. It’s because we live without culture. And this, in turn, is so because quite without reflecting about it, we have never really accepted that culture into which we were born and that is ours. I am not really concerned with finding out about the causes or reasons for this tremendous waste of opportunity, but well with the possibilities to change this state of affairs on an individual human level.

The world changes through multiple and repeated changes on an individual level. Once a sufficient number of individuals have done their quantum leap to a higher evolutionary vibration, there will be a major paradigm shift in the whole system that makes that group or collective consciousness, too, will reproduce this shift on the group, national or global level. This is how all true civilization comes about: all begins in the cell and then expands to bigger patterns. Nature is coded in patterns that are holistically related to each other and where the information of the whole is contained in every single cell of the pattern.

The pattern structure is the model for the information the brain receives and stores. New information is added–on to existing information. Without this kind of information routing, which is part of the brain’s mechanism of information processing, that in neurology is called preferred pathways, memory would not be possible.

The better the brain can manage to associate new input with existing patterns of information, the faster the information storage will be, and thus the higher will be the memorization result.

Our brain does this intake of information automatically, passively, without a need for us to set a decision about it. This fact is tremendously important for the understanding of the functioning of the brain. There is namely a positive side and a negative side about it. Positively, the passively organizing perception structure of the brain insures that we continuously receive and store information; we cannot shut down the brain. Even in coma or deep hypnosis we perceive and register all that goes on around us. All the information from the five, and I would correct, the six senses is perceived and stored in the subconscious memory surface that never sleeps, and that perhaps, at least in a condensed fashion, also survives death.

So the apparently passive functioning of the brain is actually a vividly active process. The important point about it is that the organizer of the information is inside and not outside of the system.

To give an example, let us have a look at two groups of children. The first group is raised permissively so that they can pick up any information freely from their environment and grow, from the information they get, into what they are individually destined for. The second group, however, is strictly regulated, protected and warded off from any unprocessed information.

Which group, would you think, will be more intelligent and more creative, the first or the second one? Of course the first one. Simply because in their case the freely organizing system of their perception and the free flow of information, combined with high input will make their brains working on high gear from early age, whereas in the second group creative learning processes are for the most part impaired, blocked or even mutilated.

In the first group the organizer of the information is inside, within the children, while in the second group it is outside, and in the tutelary adults around the children, their parents and teachers for the most part, that are putting up valves for the free flow of incoming information, filtering out the larger part of it. We can also put it that way: in the first group it is nature’s intelligence that cares for the children’s evolution, in the second case it is limited and rather shortsighted human willfulness.

This simple example shows the high impact the early environment has on the development of our intelligence and our later use of the potential that we’ve got.

In my opinion we all have got high or exceptional potential but only very few of us were exposed to the right environmental support and have, in addition, developed the necessary creative will to free themselves from the dangers of conditioning. And we need both those factors working in a positive sense if we are to fully develop our talents and creative powers.

J. Krishnamurti, today recognized as one of humanity’s most important spiritual teachers, was as a child constantly beaten in school by a violent and ignorant teacher. His childhood was all misery and solitude and he would probably have ended as the village idiot if the theosophists had not discovered the boy and taken him to England where he was educated under their patronage.

Announced by seers as the World Teacher, this boy was found, at age fourteen, at a beach in Bangalore, South India, neglected, almost toothless, malnourished and sad. Krishnamurti, as a little boy, rejected the knowledge he was supposed to assimilate. He rejected all of it, the whole of conditioning, societal, religious, moral or whatever.

And because of this refusal he was treated with utter disrespect and violence, as so many children who, like him, prefer to remain in their original state of mind which is pure and unspoiled, the mind of a totally conscious direct observer.

Krishnamurti learned by direct perception and therefore his learning was immediate, perfectly spontaneous and almost instantaneous: the whole–brain learning of a genius.

Direct perception is the key to using your hidden potential. It will allow you in hitherto unforeseen ways to bring about uncanny capacities that you know only from people who are either called yogis or geniuses. However, we are all gifted with the spark of the Divine and able to pass beyond the limitations of our conditioned mind.

Pitfalls of Perception

Edward de Bono was one of the first coaches and professional think tanks who, after thorough research into the functioning of the brain and human perception, found that human perception is faulty in the sense that its self–organizing structure is conditioned to ensure survival, and not to bring about the highest possible level of integrity in processing and storing the data that is coming in through the senses.

When the brain receives new information, it has only two alternatives for storing that information away; it builds a new pattern or adds the data on to an existing pattern. The first alternative would ensure the highest level of preserving the integrity of the incoming information. The second alternative ultimately brings about a faulty perception interface, but it’s much faster to process for the brain, and it serves survival because it builds upon already established information pathways in the brain.

When de Bono, in 1969, released his theory of passively organizing systems in one of his first books, The Mechanism of Mind (1969), scientists at first disregarded his research.

When later Nobel prize winners confirmed it, and amazing new discoveries in neurology corroborated it, de Bono became well–known and his advice was sought after by some of the largest corporations in the world.

The preferred–pathways theory, now presented even in popular science books, is the scientific formulation of de Bono’s early theory. Historically, de Bono certainly was the first author to write about the negative side of this system whereas many neurologists, until this day, continue to recognize but the positive effects of it. The essential negative point in self–organizing systems is that the recognition of new patterns is conditioned upon the characteristics of already existing patterns.

Bono said in his book Serious Creativity (1996) that when we analyze data we can only pick out the idea we already have.

That de Bono’s insight is more than neurology is shown by the fact that Krishnamurti, Maharshi and many yogis teach us that only total awareness, not thought can help us understand the world intelligently.

Thought or the rational mind is not able to recognize patterns; it can only process patterns that are already stored away in the memory surface.

The conditioning of perception by thought and by past experience was one of the arguments Krishnamurti used to show how to overcome the limitations inherent in the thought process. Krishnamurti showed in his writings and talks that there is unlimited intelligence and awareness not in thought but in the realm beyond thought.

In simple language, when we perceive reality, the reality we perceive never looks fresh and new, but as something already known; this is so because the brain, as a matter of automatism, conditions the new information it receives upon what it already knows. Practically speaking, the patterns we perceive that can fit in existing patterns are automatically added–on to these existing patterns by the brain.

When it occurs that a new patterns reveals to be so different that it cannot be added on to any existing pattern, the brain, instead of immediately building a new preferred pathway, will try to bend the new pattern so much that it becomes similar to an existing pattern.

Practical example: when you see an UFO landing and extra–terrestrials leaving it, you will look at this in amazement, but later, in hindsight, you will tend to argue ‘Oh yes, I guess it was just a normal airplane that I saw landing, and I was probably hallucinating altogether in that moment.’ Your brain added the new information on to already existing information instead of forming a new pattern in the memory surface. This is how the brain, and the process of thought, works, and how this system impacts upon perception by actually per se distorting perception.

The British neurologist Herbert James Campbell gave comprehensive answers. Campbell argues that our brain has developed this kind of faulty memory surface because it was protecting human survival — while by doing that it has brought about millions of deficient thinkers!

Now, how can we avoid this automatism? Krishnamurti taught that it was by practicing total attention. We can be so alert that we are aware of the brain’s attempt to trick us out. A woman says:

— I was once stolen money by a trickster. Today I saw a charming young trickster and stage hypnotist. We were flirting a moment. Then, when I looked in his eyes, it came to my mind that he just wanted to steal me money.

The new pattern was: A trickster — potential lover. The old pattern was: A trickster — thief. The new pattern did not fit in the memory surface. The pattern was: a trickster — thief. The new pattern a trickster — possible lover could not ‘erase’ the old pattern nor could it be added–on to it because of the contradiction thief–lover.

What should we tell that lady regarding the old pattern? We saw that her brain could not erase the pattern automatically, but that some kind of input from herself was needed. I would have the following dialogue with the client:

— Please first question the validity of the old pattern! Was there not a logical fault in the old pattern as it was a generalization? A trickster who stole you money, yes or no?

— Yes.

— All tricksters steal money. Yes or no?

— No.

Through raising her consciousness by these simple questions she could indeed have erased the old pattern; however, this is only valid for the brain, for her intellect, not for her heart: her emotions could still adhere to the old myth that all tricksters or stage hypnotists were thieves. So I tell her:

— Please engage in a new love relation in order to disprove the validity of a single experience that was triggering a general belief. Through a new positive experience the belief you have stored away as a result of an earlier experience can be effectively erased.

— Do you guarantee that? she asks.

— There is no guarantee in life, regarding love, I reply. If you want a guarantee for love, you kill love. When you love, go for love, not for security. Security is the death of love.

It is obvious that the second method is better than the first, because it will impact both upon the mind and the emotions of the subject.

Processed Reality

When I have a certain opinion about books, my whole attitude toward books, my handling of books, my appreciation or depreciation of books, and my habits for purchasing books are all impregnated by my opinion about books.

Whatever made me form that opinion in the first place — most of the time I will have forgotten about it anyway — is not important. The opinions I cherish have an immediate impact upon my perception of reality.

Instead of leaving reality as it is, the brain thus processes reality by the very mechanism of perception that it uses to perceive this reality.

When I have certain religious convictions, such as the conviction that eating pork meat is bad for my health, mind, growth and attitudes, and perhaps even for my sexual behavior, my relationship with pork meat is impregnated by this conviction: in the most common case, I will make a big circle around pork meat.

When I eat pork, and as a result of my convictions, I will think that I am a swine. It works like that. And in talks with others I will stress the undesired effects of pork meat.

I will certainly find a great number of scientific research that proves my point of view, and thus validates my conviction that pork meat is a harmful component in the human organism. Let’s get free of swinish things and habits …, you will declare, and conclude, with your habitual enthusiasm:

— Oh folks, begin to pray for the new religion that is free of swines!

Still stronger than opinions and convictions are beliefs.

What are beliefs? Figure beliefs as highly condensed convictions, so condensed that they have an immediate and absolute impact on our perception, an impact that is so strong and direct that we are totally unaware of it. The danger of beliefs is in fact that in most cases they are completely unconscious.

In fact, all our life circumstances are but reflections of our inner life, projected upon the interface of real life. The cause for all in life, for all we attract, is inside of us — it’s within our thoughts and emotions.

From our inner state, the screen of thought and of our conscious and unconscious beliefs, energy irradiates into the universe that brings about changes and that drives us and others to various kinds of actions. Depending upon the level of integration and harmony of our inner actors, the resulting actions are effective or ineffective, constructive or destructive, harmonious or disruptive.

That is why beliefs immediately condition our reality.

They are very important keys to understanding our personal reality, while they are really in the way of understanding our soul reality. But beliefs lose their power, and they are no more a trap to holistic perception the moment we understand their impact, when we see how powerful they actually are, and how dangerous.

When I understand my beliefs, I understand my life. When I am unconscious about my beliefs, I am a ball for others to play with because my life is fake, and I am lacking authenticity. Why? Because I am lacking autonomy which is a state of consciousness that is free of limiting beliefs and 1001 convictions. Living without convictions and values is the only way to be free.

Values, the big word in personal power training is in fact the greatest manipulation. Because it is but belief. There are no values other than what I project upon the surface of my consciousness. I may setup guiding principles in my life and call them values, but what most people call values are beliefs.

Self–Fulfilling Prophecies

Prophecies are not only those by famous seers such as Nostradamus, or those contained in the Bible’s Apocalypse, but also prophecies that we receive from astrologers, fortune–tellers, or numerologists.

Apart from the creative flow that marks the distance between a poetically expressed prophecy and a precise time–lined event in world history, there are no popular books that report how many of Nostradamus’ predictions have not realized in tangible reality. Thus, the proof, if there is any, would have to be corroborated by counter–proof. This is not a matter of trust or mistrust, but a matter of statistics.

Responsible and honest astrologers, numerologists and Tarot experts do not work with prophecies, and they consciously avoid being suggestive.

As all fortune telling is but scanning the content of consciousness and extrapolating it onto the future, it is a volatile thing because through changing the content of my consciousness, I change my future implicitly.

That is why a responsible and conscious astrologer will tell the client only the present content of their consciousness as it appears from the planetary constellations in the birth chart and all the additional vectors such as Moon Nodes, Transits and Progressions, Part of Fortune as well as Lilith and Progressed Lilith.

We cannot know or predict the future as the future is based upon the present and the present is subject to constant change and transformation. The change of the vector Present triggers the vector Future to change accordingly. Thus every prediction of the future truly is an inquiry into the content of present consciousness. Here the paranormal element comes in, which is simply telepathy.

The worst prophecies are those that we use to call self–fulfilling prophecies, those that we give to ourselves, as a form of voicing our beliefs. For example Mister X. loudly voices at a party that he just has started a new business, and then takes a deep look in the beer glass, after which he declares:

— Well, well, but … surely … as I know myself … and my life … all this will end like all ended before: in a complete failure …

And everybody laughs. While there was nothing, absolutely nothing to laugh about. Somebody killed himself in front of the whole audience.

Self–fulfilling prophecies are suicide. And they have been shown to be involved also in the etiology of cancer.

Recognized alternative cancer therapists Dr. Carl Simonton and Stephanie Simonton write in their book Getting Well Again (1978) that a patient who avidly expects recovery has clearly more chances for complete healing than one who expects to die because he or she has given up any hope for recovery. They speak in either case of a reinforcing cycle that is put in motion through the expectancy they harbor and feed in their mind. They write:

[A]n expectation of success will often lead to success, which in turn provides evidence / that the original expectation was correct. On the other hand, an expectation of failure will often result in an unsuccessful outcome, which in turn validates the negative expectation. In both cases, the outcome created by the expectation supports the validity of the original expectation. The expectancy, whether positive or negative, gets stronger the more the cycle is repeated.

— Dr. O. Carl Simonton, Getting Well Again (1992), pp. 80–81.

What is valid in medical science, the Simontons pursue, is also valid in education. They report in their book the following startling survey:

Rosenthal and his associates produced equally startling evidence on expectancy in a study conducted with children in a California public school district. A non–verbal intelligence test was administered to eighteen classrooms of elementary students at the beginning of the school year. The teachers were told that the test would predict which children were ready to bloom intellectually. Twenty percent of the students whom Rosenthal selected at random, and not on the basis of test scores, were then identified as being ‘intellectual bloomers,’ and their teachers were told that these students could be expected to show remarkable gains during the coming year. The only difference between these students and a control group was the expectancy created in the teachers’ minds. Yet when both groups of students were retested eight / months later, the randomly chosen ‘bloomers’ had gained in I.Q. points over the control group.

— d., pp. 81–82. The original research can be found in R. Rosenthal, Experimenter effects in behavioral research, New York: Appleton–Century–Crofts, 1966.

Unconscious Repetition Urges

Unconscious repetition urges were first discovered by psychoanalysis. Sigmund Freud found a mechanism in our psyche that is quite uncanny : when we suffer a traumatic event, especially in childhood, our brain has only two possibilities:

  • shut off the computer: we turn mad; or
  • reprogram the software: we forget all.

The brain avoids the first, as a matter of self–protection, and practices the second. While all is stored away in our memory surface, the conflictual content becomes repressed into the unconscious. And then, it happens that we attract circumstances that lead us to again and again repeat the same scenario, really or metaphorically, and this is organized by our memory surface not for bothering us, but for giving us a chance for healing the early trauma.

Alice Miller often refers to her own childhood and the traumata she has suffered from a deeply narcissistic, cold, cruel and lifeless mother. But her main problem, as probably the main problem of the patients she treated in her psychiatric practice in Switzerland, was not the hurts and traumata that she or them could remember. It was those that they could not remember but that were signaling their existence through the nasty fact that over and over in their lives, they were facing the same problems with people, the same problems with partners, and the same patterns in those problems. Patterns that thus are similar and repetitive, or rather one pattern that manifests with a little variety.

I have tracked this pattern and found what I call an abuse pattern being present in many women. For example, a mother lives within a conflictual marriage where she and her partner engage in extramarital sex and pornographic parties, something that occurs in continental Europe more often than not. She has strong fears about her children, and especially the fear that her little girl could be abused by a stranger.

As a result of her obsessive fear, she is suspicious about her babysitter, as he is a male, and she is kind of convinced that all males want to abuse once in a while, just to prove themselves they are males.

After further talks, I invariably found with such clients that they had been abused in their younger years or during their girlhood by either their father or stepfather, their grandfather, an uncle, an older brother, a cousin, or a boyfriend when they were dating for the first time.

Thus, I did not need to read Alice Miller to know about that specific pattern. I had enough crying mothers in front of me, when over a cup of coffee they told me about what they called their ‘problem.’

And in a case that particularly touched me, I was dumbfounded to see how inescapable the fate seems to be that unconscious repetition urges bring about. When I was seven years old, I fell in love with a neighbor girl, Ursula.

Ursula was the daughter of a policeman who was working with the French military, the former occupation force in our town. He was thus a horse–top policeman, called in French, a cavalier. But he was not a gentleman toward his daughter, because he was whipping her regularly for punishment. And that girl suffered terribly from the sadism of her father and our relationship was rendered impossible by that sadist and equally by the girl’s very suspicious and neurotic mother. To a point that she simply was forbidden to ride on the bike with me. She was never allowed to leave the house when I came to pick her up.

And exactly twenty years later I met her again, by chance, in a little bistro in our town. And she told me the following story:

I have suffered terribly from men in my life. First my father and then my husband. You know what my father did to me, but you don’t know what my husband did. He raped me constantly and was beating me, so that I asked for the divorce. We were divorced and after the divorce, he broke in my apartment and raped me again. I had to call the police but they said they could not really protect me.

Unconscious repetition urge means that destiny wanted Ursula get beyond her affliction and once for all solve her victim condition, a problem of codependence puzzled up with hate–love feelings toward her father. You may think Ursula will get a gun and shoot down the next guy who attempts to take advantage of her. Yet that is not what usually happens in life. That’s perhaps the movies, but not real life. And it’s no solution because the abuse pattern is within Ursula, not without. And it can’t be healed through violence, but only through consciousness.

It’s only possible if Ursula can regress again in her childhood, during medical hypnosis or any other method that uses hypnosis implicitly, or if Ursula can play it out in a psychodrama with a male who in some way stands for all those who have abused her in the past. And through that game–like role play, Ursula could observe her reaction and her feelings and see what exactly in her attracts men that violate her integrity.

When Ursula was seven years old, she could not do that work and her brain had to react with a trauma response. But with twenty–seven that archaic reaction of the brain is not any more for Ursula’s best and she has to learn alternatives in behavior and regarding her expectations so as to attract men that care for her, love her and see the beauty in her.

The tragedy in Ursula’s life and the lives of so many others who have had traumatic childhoods is that at least once they met their savior, but were not allowed to develop the relationship. I was for Ursula that person, that savior, the one who totally loved and understood her, a boy of her age. Many dreams that I received in my childhood about her and me confirmed that.

The tragedy was that our love was impossible — rendered impossible by exactly the violators that traumatized her whole life. Her parents.

Spiritual Pitfalls

The recognition of the secondary nature of the personality of whatever deity is worshipped is characteristic of most of the traditions of the world. In Christianity, Mohammedanism, and Judaism, however, the personality of the divinity is taught to be final — which makes it comparatively difficult for the members of these communions to understand how one may go beyond the limitations of their own anthropomorphic divinity. The result has been, on the one hand, a general obfuscation of the symbols, and on the other, a god–ridden bigotry such is unmatched elsewhere in the history of religion. For a discussion of the possible origin of this aberration, see Sigmund Freud, Moses and Monotheism, 1939.

— Joseph Campbell, The Hero with A Thousand Faces, New York: Princeton University Press, 1949, Third Printing, 1973, pp. 258, 259, note 5.


Among spiritual sense givers churches are at the first place because they are considering themselves as superconscious organizations established for man’s spiritual welfare — while in truth they are representations of our inner shadow, the black man that we bear inside, the part of us that is not light, not conscious, and thus in a magic condition, and as a result subject of, and subjected to, myths and mythologies.

Churches and their like institutions in other religions have the nasty habit to interfere in people’s lives like your mother–in–law, telling you what you ought to do, and what you ought not to.

As if you were a baby or a psychotic, or a psychotic baby. It’s a fact that churches and other so–called spiritual organizations exert power over people that subject themselves to them as their believers.

Apart from the interesting word play that this represents when we think of what beliefs are and how devastating they are for any success in life, we may understand what we can expect from churches — and what we cannot expect from them.

In Singapore, the Christian churches have a spicy note that distinguishes them from Christian churches in the West: when the time of the mass approaches, the yard is filled with shiny new cars, predominantly Mercedes and BMW, Jaguar and Rolls–Royce, and inside the building the walls are covered with big and golden panels that cite in detail who has given which contribution to the church’s monetary fund. The amounts range from several thousand Singapore dollars to several hundred thousand Singapore dollars each. When I asked a Christian Singapore Chinese what he thought about that, he openly laughed and declared:

But Christian churches in Singapore have nothing to do with the Christian dogma. They are prime meeting places for business people to get to know each other and to talk business. That is why we go to Church!

And when you join a mass in Geneva’s Cathedral on a Sunday morning, you will hear how spicy Swiss Calvinism can be out of the mouth of a sadist and world–hater that declares all pleasure as ‘sin’ and the children’s carousel in front of the Cathedral an ‘invention of the devil.’

Human theater? I agree. But what the hell has it to do with spirituality? To split life in a spiritual and a non–spiritual part per se destroys any chance to get beyond the soup of mass thinking. The way to a spiritual life simply, and importantly, begins with questioning your beliefs, and all the rest of the human soup that preaches mediocrity, fatality and misery as the human condition.


It is a tragic irony that churches are trying to distance themselves from sects. They do this after they saw that sects simply were more radical, while they are for the most part based upon exactly the same principles as churches.

When I applied for a position with the European Parliament’s Administration in Luxembourg, I was invited to participate in a nationwide competition in which eight hundred German lawyers participated. The subject of one of the written tests, you guessed it, was sects. At the time, in 1983, sects had become a European problem, as not only the member states of the EU were suffering from the sect problem, but the European Union as a whole tried to get hold of the ‘spiritual epidemics,’ so to speak, by giving out guidelines to all the ministries of education of all member states about how to handle the sect problem.

What had been my recommendations? I in fact recommended to not treat the symptoms but cure the disease. What was the disease? A spiritual vacuum in young people. And I had seen how it happened with a friend of mine who was a blooming youth, artist and teacher, before he entered that sect in France, and after they had brainwashed and force–married him in that sect, he was a decrepit elder with a rigid, judgmental mindset. And that sect was named The Church of Enlightenment.

They obviously and for well–founded reasons had avoided to name the organization a sect in order to circumvent the national and supranational regulations against sects.

From the basic paradigm, the life denial, the dogmatic approach, the repressive attitudes toward children, with their resulting harsh beatings, the Draconian restrictions on lifestyle, diet and sexual behavior and the arrogant preaching of so–called truth ‘in the name of Jesus Christ,’ they were exactly behaving like most churches. And the danger for modern society comes equally from both churches and sects, because it’s only the label in which they differ.


And there are those who think they are especially modest and virtuous. They do not go to churches because they find that old–fashioned, and they do not join sects because they do not want to restrict their lifestyle. Thus, they travel to India to see Sai Baba or any other guru with a certain reputation. And then they come back with longer hair, dirty clothes and an enlightened mind.

The guru and the disciple engage in a shared form of corruption and they are both responsible for it, not only one of them. They both play theater, not only the guru. They both share in the same comedy, or tragedy, as you wish to see it. They are actors on the same stage. And their credo is: you have to follow a better one so that you will become better. You have to follow a higher one so that you become higher. You have to follow a more intelligent one so that you become more intelligent. You have to follow an humbler one so that you become more humble. You have to follow a famous one so that one day you will be famous. And so on.

Guruism is one of many outflows of the hero paradigm that is in turn a direct result of the patriarchal rut with its rigid senior–junior hierarchy among males, and even among females, but stronger rooted among males.

Gurus, not those who are meta–teachers by living their truth, such as Krishnamurti, but self–declared gurus and especially those who call themselves ‘spiritual teachers’ are professing to know better than their disciples how the latter should live their lives. Where they take this superiority from remains occult, and is not explainable simply because in matters of our individual quest for truth, there is no hierarchy, absolutely no hierarchy among humans.

This is simply so. We are called upon as individuals to find our personal reality, as an intimate quest, a search for our own Holy Grail that can be found only in our heart, and not in the bosom of any guru.


Every religion cherishes a savior, some kind of super–human that is put as the living ideal, the first–class vintage, so to say, the best of the best in terms of human perfection — or whatever that might be. And that is exactly where the problem is resulting from. Saviors are mythical figures, full of mystery and disdain, it seems, for so–called ‘ordinary reality.’ They are nice as actors on the stage of fairy tales. But they are not nice when taken as ideal humans, as targets for projecting our wishes to be better than we are. Because in this quality, they are truly destructive for our growth.

Saviors are supposed to live special lives, lives of magic and wonder, lives that we all would like to live. But when we look and compare, for example historical facts and feats from the real lives of Jesus of Nazareth or Gautama Buddha, we see that there is really a large gap, to say the least, between what we can find was their real life, and what later was made out of that life and out of that person. Jesus and Buddha were later declared to be cosmic masterminds. Gee. Oh. Dee.

What is Gee Oh Dee?

A new song? An old soup? The name of a famous actress? No. The name of that super–savior mastermind, the big brother robot that is supposed to be the lonely baboon, the biggest boss or the most original hacker in our universe? A story for youngsters — at best.

All savior stories are hero stories. Food not for thought, but for your inner child. When you are conscious of the damage these kindergarten stories do and have done in the course of mankind, you can prevent that the damage will affect you, and you can avoid to fall in the savior–trap, as a result of a narcissistic fixation, in becoming the savior for your mother, your father, your brother, your sister, your spouse or your child. Not only mental hospitals are full of saviors and Jesus Christs, but also most families.

Françoise Dolto (1908–1988), in a workshop for child therapy reports the case of a young boy suffering from a priapus, a painful long–term erection of his penis that lasted for months. The father, a bank director, was in high sorrow about what he called the ‘indecent condition’ of his child and took the boy to Françoise Dolto’s famous psychoanalytic practice in Paris.

Dolto was able to cure the boy from the long–term erection of his penis, but two weeks after the successful termination of that cure, the mother of the boy called Dolto and said her husband had died from a heart attack.

The boy had been the savior of his father and as long as he was the suffering agent, the father could keep the balance in an otherwise unbalanced life. When the boy was cured, the father’s rolling chair was taken away and he fell struck dead.

Ideological Pitfalls

Today, the propaganda machine of postmodern international consumerism is the result of more than a millennium of knowledge prohibition, spiritual manipulation and systematically bred life–hate. It is the newest and the most fashionable of our present–day sociopolitical ideologies.

Consumerism blindfolds the masses surely in a sweeter way than the Church’s brutal knowledge prohibition that was enforced by the Inquisition and endless witchhunts. The sweetness and big promise of freedom as an integral part of consumer culture guarantees much higher effectiveness than coercion or brute force in repressing the original love wishes of the populace.

This is so because in fact subtle media–based manipulation is used to innocuously replacing emotional and sexual longings by material longings for acquiring and possessing consumer goods.

And when looking at it in a superficial way, I gain freedom when I exchange a part of my money in the bank with a nicely designed and smoothly running sports car, plasma television or computer notebook. I gain creative freedom, can move around in a splendid way, comfortably, and can get a self–esteem boost through the admiration I receive from others for being an XY–Limousine owner or a VZ–Notebook owner. Besides that, I can write, compose, draw and publish my media productions in fully using the creative possibilities of my notebook.

This superficial observation however veils the fact that the overwhelming majority of limousine and notebook owners are not more substantially creative after buying these goods than they were before. Or, put differently, the truth is that my real freedom is not that I have money in the bank that allows me to buy or not buy consumer goods. My real freedom is to be able to live without working for anybody, without being a slave for eight hours a day, forty hours a week. By the same token, my real freedom is my urge to be creative, constantly creative, and it makes no substantial difference if I use a notebook or write by hand on a simple sheet of paper.

My real freedom thus is my spiritual drive or soul’s desire to surpass my mere physical human condition and express my ideas, or create art.

When you take a deeper look, you see that the masses are cheated twice through the promises of consumerism. They for the most part do not have enough money in the bank, or property, or company shares allowing them to live a meaningful existence without working for somebody. Thus, what indeed most people need and desire is freedom!

Consumer culture promises this freedom, but let us see what it boils down to. For acquiring the goods that will grant me some form of creative freedom, I need money. For acquiring the money that I need to buy these goods, I need to work, and work more than usual, because I need a surplus of money, a lot more than the amount I anyway need for food, clothes and shelter, or the education of my children. How to get this amount of surplus money?

Through effort, increased effort and still more increased effort. Thus, in order to expand myself more within consumer culture, I in fact need to curb myself more. For every dollar of surplus money, I need to work relatively harder than for the same dollar of money covering my basic human needs for food and shelter.

Of course, this reality is blinded out by publicity, and one essential task of publicity is exactly to blindfold the consumer, suggesting that the acquisition of goods is smooth and easy, using consumer credit as the ultimate backdoor for climbing on the bandwagon. However, it has been shown by leading financial consultants that the consumer credit is the single most destructive form of credit there is in the economy. This is so because the consumer credit, contrary to the business credit, is not backed up by an increase in productivity, but in the contrary needs a constant almost super–human effort to produce the surplus of financial resources needed to pay back the credit. It is a time bomb!

This is so much the more embarrassing when the duration of the credit surpasses the average life–span of the consumer good. For example, when my computer notebook is trash after two years because of the swindling progress in IT technology, and I need four years of credit duration to finance it, I will use two years of my life to pay for something that I do not use any longer and that does not give me any more freedom or creativity value. Of course, you may still use your notebook, but you are highly incited to sell it for a very low price and buy a new model using another consumer credit.

This is how in very credit–intensive consumer cultures such as the United States, people who seem well–to–do on first sight, actually are often caught in a net of credits that, if the slightest thing happens that disturbs the credit payback–cycle, the card house crashes and people who were enjoying life yesterday, today plan to suicide themselves.

It is not a Marxist idea, then, to say that this system incarcerates the ignorant masses in pretty much the same false beliefs than previously the religious caste did with their endless taboos. Marx and Engels have brilliantly analyzed the destructive effects of capitalism, but acting on these insights brought about governmental regulation, prohibition and coercion, unfreedom, persecution and even torture. And all this justified by the initial intent to prevent the masses from indebting themselves destructively.

That’s how it goes. These policies were wrong and ineffective because they disregarded the basic human need for distinction, and the readiness of human beings to give sustained effort, and even sacrifice themselves for a higher quality of life, a higher social status, academic or scientific distinction, opportunity for travel, more popularity or a greater circle of friends and acquaintances. Clearly, these values are not commercial and what the communist ideologies have overlooked is that the human being does not per se strive for money or for accumulating money or other riches.

What people strive for is the creative freedom that wealth brings, and they do so with very good reasons, with the main reason namely that this freedom is real freedom and not the fake freedom of consumerism.

Modern culture has no idea of how to live a happy life. It replaces true happiness with fake–values that suggest consumer satiation being the ultimate enjoyment in life.

‘I have a new car, refrigerator and air–condition, a home theater and the walls in my garage covered with books. I am a well–red and cultured person. I work hard and go to the gym in my free–time. I am married with a wife and three children. My wife works. My children go to school. I am a happy citizen. I have a family. I have values. I have convictions. I have possessions. I have.’

Possessions–based lifestyle kills every form of culture. And when you look at modern life you realize that it’s not a culture, but a fake–culture, that it’s not based upon values, but upon fake–values, and that the people on the stage are not humans, but marionettes.

Postmodern international consumer culture is based upon the genocide of countless tribal populations who really knew what happiness is about and who lived happy lives — until they were massacred by value–based and principle–ridden modern citizens.

Emotional Pitfalls

‘A random telephone survey of 800 American adults in September 1996 found that 74 percent — virtually three out of four citizens — believe that the U.S. government regularly engages in conspirational and clandestine operations.’

— Robert A. Wilson, Everything Is Under Control: Conspiracies, Cults and Cover–Ups, New York: Harper & Row (Harper–Resource), 1998.

What did Gandhi mean when he said that spiritual training should be educating the heart? Gandhi was talking about raising emotional intelligence and holistic thinking. Worldwide Democracy, as we all know, moves rather in the opposite direction.

We will always have secret services, conspiracies and persecutions as long as we uphold the paranoid view that there is a greater force that shapes our individual destinies instead of realizing that we are the only makers of our personal universe. Countless individuals throughout human history have demonstrated that they were able to shape their destinies according to their own intrinsic life paradigm and soul values, refusing to subordinate their vision under shallow mainstream convictions.

Worldwide Democracy is based upon the exact opposite vision of the human being, namely on the myth that total consumption is what basically makes happy living. This goal, evidently serving economic interests, is largely veiled by a moralistic and fundamentalist cover paradigm and by a bulk of myths.

The cover paradigm, which is one of projection and persecution, is generally hidden to mainstream consumers. The veil however can be lifted quite easily by those with an inquisitive and critical mind. The information, while it is filtered by mainstream media, is easily available through alternative presses and the Internet. But as it does not fit in the rosy foam of glorious consumerism, thus after filtering, what remains in the mainstream media are the myths, and the projections.

It is not difficult to see the obvious parallels between the present scapegoat groups and the historic ones. And even today, the old persecutions have not ceased either. Anti–Semitism is on the rise again, and that despite the protection that the state of Israel enjoys by the United States of America and other Western powers.

The stress when analyzing fascism should perhaps not be put so much on the objects of the current or past persecutions, but on the general climate that leads to intolerance and persecution. As to this general climate, I am certainly not alone in saying that we are again in an era of political and social intolerance, of irrationality, of blunt media manipulation and of persecution.

And what I am saying here is essentially that the new salvational construct that is put in the formula worldwide democracy is actually at the basis of the new danger to true humanity, as it serves as an easy eye–catcher and an attractive packaging device.

Creating Reality

Move on and leave your past behind you!, said the wizard, and you answer Yes, this is all right and good, and I can see it with my rational mind, but the rest of myself does not seem to follow that insight. So I remain caught in the net woven by my past and my deeply ingrained habitual thought and emotional patterns.

I have the habit to make myself down, says one. I have the habit to make myself up, says the other. They talk to each other and conclude they were opposite characters. In reality, they are very similar. Both make themselves down.

The second one however has a narcissistic pattern in addition to his guilt–and–shame pattern which means that he covers his wound by counterfeiting his own knowledge, saying I’m Peter Pan, and as such far removed from your petty world. I fly in the airs, catch me if you can. The sane mind does not make itself down, nor up. It accepts itself and all–that–is. His reality is either perceived directly and without distortion, which is possible and to be found with spiritual coaches and shamans, or processed to a minimum extent because of a highly developed consciousness surface, which is a state of spiritual evolution each of us can attain.

The present second part of this article is a short guide to assist you in this very important quest for self–development. We have seen in the first part of this production that most people are on the passive side of life, so to say, perceiving reality more or less unconsciously and processing that information as good as they can.

Perhaps it is true what David Mahoney who was named in Fortune Magazine one of the ten toughest bosses in America, has to say about this subject:

I just keep moving every day as hard and fast as I can. High–intensity and high–voltage. Light comes from that, not from passivity. I insist we all do our best every day. I’m intense in everything I do and I expect others will be, too. There may be timing factors in it, good luck and fortune factors, but the question is, do you utilize it? Some of it you can’t control — some of it goes against you — it works both ways. You run to daylight — where you see the break you go. Most people aren’t even aware of what’s happening around them. Two–thirds of the people don’t know what’s going on to them, personally.

I find it always amazing to see in which precise ways the insights of spiritual teachers, successful psychiatrists, famous artists and outstanding entrepreneurs coincide when it goes to explain the why and how of success.

This tells me that this information and insight is available to all of us, and not only to some chosen elite. This insight is intuition.

What most mediocre people do is to foreclose, in one or the other way, this natural knowledge about high achievement in order to justify their limitative worldview and to have a reason for engaging in self–pity and endless procrastination.

In all great success there is an element of novelty, something that was barely predictable before the person succeeded on their particular path. This element of novelty is what makes the essential part of success in that it is part of a new reality that has been created, consciously or implicitly. As Edward de Bono states it:

Once a new idea springs into existence it cannot be unthought.

No, I’m not talking about science fiction here. It’s true that science fiction authors have been particularly imaginative for envisioning a new global reality, a new reality for the whole of humanity, and this particularly on a technological level. Here I’m talking about personal reality, not about the reality of a future humanity. I am not a science fiction author, nor a social utopist.

What I show you is not something related to myself, but something that is within your own personal potential. I show you an ability that you already possess, alongside your other skills and capacities. However, most people ignore that human imagination could have such a strong impact upon reality, and that it’s actually a creator force, the creator force in the universe.

Yet this tremendous energy has to be properly channeled. Your best imagination is not of much use when your general thought patterns are overwhelmingly negative.

Look at the life story of the great French novelist Honoré de Balzac, who was one of the most imaginative authors in the literary history of humanity.

And yet his personal life was a series of tragedies, failures, disasters, scandals, open or hidden fights with others, animosities of the worst sort, and on the other hand unbridled debauchery, self indulgence and a lifestyle in which he exhibited very little self–discipline.

Suffices to read one page of this literary genius, the description of a person, the way the hero or heroine is clothed, walks, talks, thinks and we are put directly on–stage, facing that person in real life, so vivid are Balzac’s descriptions, so brilliant and sharp was his imagination. But to what purpose was it used? It was certainly used to create great literature and art. It was hardly ever, or not at all used to create a new and different personal reality for the author himself.

This is an example for the fact that imagination alone does not bring the result, but that all depends on how imagination is channeled. How do you use your imagination? And with which purpose do you use it, when you use it?

When your memory surface is not clear, what happens when you use imagination for achieving your goals? I cannot tell you what happens, but I can tell you that chances are low for what you wish to happen really to come about. Why? Because your memory surface intermittently infiltrates information in your imaginative content that you absolutely do not wish to have put.

Is there any willful control over this process? No. There is only one way: clearing the memory surface. When your glasses are dirty, and you see a foggy world, your willpower alone will not clean them. You have to take a piece of cloth and wipe them clean. It’s the same with memory. It can be wiped clean.

I have done that at several instances in my life and thus I know that it works. You may have read in other books that it does not work, or that it works only for very exceptional people such as yogis, gurus, spiritual teachers, and the like. No, we are talking here about something ordinary, not about a mysterious spiritual matter. We are talking about something rather mechanical.

The memory surface pretty much works like a magnetic tape. You can store information. You can add–on information. You can erase information. Only one thing you cannot do. There is no function that stops the brain from recording.

This means that even though you may already program your reality according to your innermost wishes, reality always brings novelty of its own, because it’s not, and cannot be, dependent upon your creative mind.

That’s a truth that our great poets express beautifully and that can be put very simply in the formula: reality always surpasses the individual mind. But that’s not something to deplore. It only shows that our individual mind and soul are imbedded in a greater soul reality that kind of connects all minds within a cosmic meta–reality that is beyond the control of our individual mind. And yet, every impact of our individual mind upon this cosmic reality surface is noticed and can be retraced.

I have explained this in order to prevent you from getting depressed by just another pitfall of perception, this time of self–perception: the pitfall namely to believe we were insignificant as individual human beings on that cosmic, universal plane of consciousness. If this was so, we could not be co–creators, and we could not create our own reality. And in that case, I would not have taken the time and done the effort to tell you all of this.

A philosopher once compared humans with the billions of grains of sand on a beach, and this image has been interpreted as a metaphor for the insignificance of human beings in the cosmos. This is, in my view, a fundamental error.

Who, tell me, knows about the importance of an individual grain of sand in the whole of the cosmos, or even the whole of creation?

To arrogate yourself to state that a grain of sand is insignificant means the same as saying that the whole of creation, and implicitly also that the creator force itself is insignificant. Today we know through quantum physics that every single electron, every single particle, that is only a tiny, very tiny fraction of a grain of sand, is conscious, and maintains relationships, chooses partners and friends, and locations, or remains undecided and at many locations at the same time.

Particles are conscious. And if that is true, by implication, grains of sand are conscious. And thus they are alive!

There are various methods to clear the memory surface.

In order to make a good choice, you need to know more details about what memory actually is. Forget what you heard in school about it as it’s most probably wrong. Memory is not in the brain, but in the luminous body or aura. It’s coded in energy patterns and these patterns are virtually flowing around you, they are in movement, not static.

The brain acts as interface to the memory surface; it does not store information. The old scientific view of the brain as a storage house is long superseded by newest research that, eventually, has included the insights we gain from parapsychology, clairvoyant research, Chinese medicine and acupuncture, and meditation, as well as quantum physics.

To conclude from this research, we can say that memory is volatile; this has, by the way, a big advantage, namely, that memory is not forever engraved anywhere in our gray matter, as it was believed by a mechanistic neurology of the 1960s and 70s. It also means that memory can be triggered to release information by touching parts of the body, by doing certain movements, by doing body work such as Rolfing or Alexander Technique.

Reichian massage has proven to be especially conducive to releasing old memory patterns from the orgone shell or aura that permeates our organism, both inside the cell and around our physical body.

I have also analyzed more recent techniques like Dr. Alberto Villoldo’s soul retrieval and reviewed some of his books.

The second important point to know about memory is that it’s not memory itself that creates hangups, addictions, habits or obsessions we may suffer from, but the emotional entanglement with past events and hurts that is a typical side–effect of trauma and abuse. It is entanglement that makes us repeat again and again the same scenarios in life, as our inner intelligence puts them on stage for us to get out of the strings, and heal our past.

The vicious circle in this is that when people are unconscious and blame life, god or others for their misfortunes, they are blocking the potential healing of their scars. Then they remain entangled, and perhaps so for their whole lifetime.

That is why emotional awareness is so important; it is energy consciousness, an awareness of the flow of energy in your organism, which includes awareness of where and how your energy flow is blocked or obstructed in certain parts of the body. Typically, it’s the parts of the body that have been concerned when the abuse or traumatic event happened.

Now, how to build emotional awareness? The paradox that I found is that there is no technique to bring that awareness about when using our rational mind; it has to be built unconsciously, by sharpening our intuition.

My experience with healing has taught me that it means to not directly interfere in the process, as this may strengthen the evil, so to speak. Let me give you one example for this from the book Getting Well Again (1978) by Dr. Carl Simonton.

Dr. Simonton, who developed one of the most successful alternative therapies for cancer, reports in his book that many cancer patients who go to energy healers or laying–on of hands practitioners experience their cancer to grow, and not to shrink, after the treatment.

Why? Dr. Simonton says that cancer cells are very eager to receive energy, which lets them grow even more. This is an example that shows that a direct interference in the disease pattern does often not bring relief. And by the way, an operation, the removal of a cancerous tumor, is just another of these direct interventions; and it has been reported, by Simonton, and others, that removing a cancerous tumor does not per se remove the cancer, as the cancer is not in the tumor.

The tumor is only a secondary effect, one of many, of the cancer. This is why many cancer patients have made the sad experience that after having suffered a severe removal or amputation of an organ or limb, the cancer was beginning to spread elsewhere in the body.

So let me take this as a metaphor for introducing the simple yet effective technique I came to use for coping with hurtful memories; and let me add also that the expression erasing the memory surface is of course a metaphor as well. The process is much more complex in reality.

The technique I found helpful and effective for healing early trauma is creative writing. I came to realize it during a hypnotherapy twenty-five years ago, when my psychiatrist gave me certain themes to write about, asking me certain precise questions about my parents. I carried out these assignments very seriously and meticulously, and made the amazing discovery, that later was confirmed by my psychiatrist, that the actual healing took place every time before I had the next session with my psychiatrist, and thus actually before I presented those memoirs to him. He would utter something like we would not need to do any work, and can just ‘chat a little today,’ as the big change was obvious and could even be seen in my face.

This dumbfounded me at first, but I had to report that indeed every time I wrote one of those little stories, a great calm came over me, an inner peace I had not known before, and I felt very clearly the stream of hot vital energy flowing through my whole organism, while before I felt the energy was stuck in my lower legs and my pelvis region, which is why I had icy feet most of the time.

That problem with icy feet that I had been suffering from since my late adolescence was completely solved after writing the stories, and did no more recur later on in life.

On the other hand I have to say that honestly the writing itself was most of the time not a very agreeable experience. The writing down of those hurtful events, or in case the memory was only scarcely intact, the whole scenery or taste of a certain period of my life, triggered rather unwelcome body reactions, like outbursts of heat, hot rage, strong sweating, or sexual arousal, or all of this at once in a frenzy bath of inner violence that I can only compare with the eruption of a vulcan. At other times the body seemed to shrink and mourn, and I felt like a small fly in a universe of ice, where there are endless pathways in the dark, and icy chambers with rotten souls everywhere. Then I would fall in a deep depression and had suicidal ideas.

Both the violent reactions and the suicidal ones were even stronger when I did not only the writing, but also used spontaneous art for triggering the inner healing. That is why I suggest to beginners to not do both at the same time, at least not when you are alone and have no psychiatric support at your side.

Last not least the excellent movie What the Bleep Do We Know, Quantum Edition offers many viable suggestions and scientific corroboration of the possibility to create our own personal reality — for good! And when you look over the fence, and in the art world, you may realize that some artists have done extremely well in creating new art reality. Let me mention only Pablo Picasso and Svjatoslav Richter here as examples while there are of course many more, but I know these particularly well.

These great artists provide excellent examples for reality creation; they have not only revolutionized their specific branch of artistry, painting, and musical performance, respectively, but with their strong personalities they have coined, each, a grandiose universe.

Let me close this chapter with two quotes from the book The Power of Your Subconscious Mind by Dr. Joseph Murphy:

Look around you. Wherever you live, whatever circle of society you are part of, you will notice that the vast majority of people lives in the world without. Those who are more enlightened, however, are intensely involved with the world within. They realize — as you will, too — that the world within creates the world without. Your thoughts, feelings, and visualized imagery are the organizing principles of your experience. The world within is the only creative power. Everything you find in your world of expression has been created by you in the inner world of your mind, whether consciously or unconsciously.

— Joseph Murphy, The Power of Your Subconscious Mind (1963), p. 8.

You must ask believing, if you are to receive. Your mind moves from the thought to the thing. Unless there is first an image in the mind, it cannot move, for there would be nothing for it to move toward. Your prayer, which is your mental act, must be accepted as an image in your mind before the power from your subconscious will play upon it and make it productive. You must reach a point of acceptance in your mind, an unqualified and undisputed state of agreement.

— Id., p. 79.

Points to Ponder

  • In this article we were asking a radical question: ‘Can we perceive reality in its crude and unaltered form or does our perception interface per se distort reality?’ Assuming that for reasons to be explained, we cannot perceive reality ‘objectively,’ would that not mean, we further asked, that we actually see all reality as a ‘processed reality,’ a kind of virtual reality that is created by our own mind?’
  • We were first looking at 1960s and 70s neurological research and the early theory of ‘preferred pathways,’ proposed by neurologist Herbert James Campbell in his book The Pleasure Areas (1973), as well as the ‘mechanism of mind’ theory of think tank Edward de Bono. We saw that this research clearly indicates that the brain ‘can only see what it already knows’ (Edward de Bono) and that as a result, researchers can only pick out the data from their research that confirms their basic assumptions and beliefs. This research thus anticipated the basic tenet of quantum physics that however we set up an experiment, the observer shall always be entangled with the object he observes. In addition, this mechanism of our brain, which serves survival, does not ensure the highest possible accuracy of perception, but makes for fundamental novelty most of the time brought about by accidents, mistakes, lapses of attention, and the like, because as long as the mechanism of our brain is intact, we cannot experience novelty.
  • Does that mean that the door is closed forever in the sense that direct perception is an impossibility? Despite this setup of our perception interface, direct perception is possible, while it’s possible only for a select few of shamans, yogis, zen masters and generally, people who have really worked through their emotional entanglements, and who reduced their projections and blown–up belief system to a strict minimum. As we thus can acknowledge that direct perception is possible, can can ask what the precise criteria are for it to happen? We saw, based on this insight, that we are actually educated in our culture to misuse our brains and to develop a faulty perception interface.
  • In an attempt to define Love, Krishnamurti once said that Love cannot be defined, or it becomes a concept; thus to understand Love, we can only approach it negatively, looking at all what is not Love. This is the approach I was taking in this article, showing with a number of present–day examples that what is generally taken for ‘reality’ is a ‘processed food’ in the sense that it’s pervaded with concepts, ideological, religious or scientific, and thus data that is not part of the original idea.
  • Hence it is of paramount importance how we handle our perception interface; from this insight, we can then set about to improve self–reflective consciousness, to build awareness of our thinking habits and behavior patterns, and see how our actions impact upon society as a whole, considering karma for a whole group, or even a nation, or the entire globe.
  • When we do this, we see that we are responsible, through the very fact of participating in creation and co–creation, or as Dr. William A. Tiller recently put is, in our being ‘avatars.’ This, then, will shift our regard and deprive us from comforting projections such as ‘our government is the culprit’ or ‘modern–time debauchery and lack of values is the culprit’ or ‘lack of religious belonging is the culprit.’ We then see that the universe doesn’t ask who is a culprit for anything that ever happened, but asks us to stay true to the basic principle in a responsive universe, that is, individual response–ability.
  • This, in turn, leads to a careful approach when meeting ourselves, in our daily self–talk, when meeting others in our daily dialogues and exchanges, and in our cooperation with others. The starting point always is how we perceive reality, and how we still better perceive reality when being meticulous, as a warrior, in keeping our perception interface as pure and pristine as possible.